For me, there’s a tension to everything right now. I’ve been having new conversations, and people have been disappointing me. No-one is meeting me where I am, and I’m tired of having to do so much legwork. And I wonder if it’s worth it, or if I’m walking the wrong way.
Confronting reality is often disappointing. That’s why so many of us avoid it. The truth is usually less palatable than we’d like. But we can’t change a reality that we can’t see, which is why finding the courage to air it all out is important.
So I know all of this low-grade strain is for a good cause. I know it is a prerequisite for a better reality.
But still, it would be nice to, just for once, simply, be pleasantly surprised.